And there will be times when you will know that no matter how hard you try, you have a higher possibility of failing. You will find yourself unprepared for the worst and all your hopes and dreams will shatter in front of your eyes. You will immediately want to give up, to put yourself out of your misery but those are the moments that will determine who you become. It's okay to take a step back when you know you are not ready but I hope you don't run away just because you are afraid. I hope you don't give it up just because you have been living in fear for so long that you don't know how to free yourself. I hope that in those golden moments, you choose to be brave because they will remind you for the rest of your life that even at the point of absolute chaos, you had the determination to go on. If there is anything you can carry in this world, let it be hope. Even if you cannot completely decide who you want to be, please dream and hope for something and then, try to live a little in it. Not just daydream about it, but live in it. If tomorrow makes you feel like there's no way to make it through, you still have to give your best. It may look futile but giving 15% is still better than giving 0%. When you are done, you won't find yourself questioning 'what if'. You will know that your body and your mind gave the best that you are capable of now. Failures are a part of life and they only bring you closer to the person you want to be. Even if it feels like there are no real changes, you have grown in tiny, unrecognisable ways. You are closer to your dreams than you were a year ago.
Do not regret what you didn't and couldn't do. Instead, be proud of your small steps and keep trying. There will be a day when you will make it through.
@Rae_Pathak
Illustration by Sam Yang (@samdoesarts)
