Your Life || Poetry

 

You used to deny yourself with even the simplest things, of sleep, going places, eating, resting, happiness, and that every good thing can't be yours and you felt like you weren't ever enough - weren't smart or pretty enough or amazing enough or talented enough and coupled with a personality that isn't for everybody, you felt like this has always been reasons why people never opted to stay by your side. It was always you and yourself at every last turn.

Your insecurity was really all over the place and you always felt so undeserving of anything that you should deserve in the first place. You crumbled to the slightest touch of doubtful words thrown your way - blamed yourself too much for the things that you were not. Blamed yourself far too much that you thought of leaving your own side, too. You used to accept every emotional and mental blows and thought that you deserved them because you are less than the crumpled papers you throw away.

And it took you years to realize that like everyone else, you are someone important, too. It took you a fair amount of years to build yourself again from the ruins. It took you all these times to know that you're not undeserving of anything, that you are more than worthy of it all. So don't ever again let people tell you otherwise. Not now, not ever.

- Anj Tomas, The Storytellers

Artwork by @annaabolaart